I Trust God.....

 We have had a quiet weekend doing housework, laundry, and packing away Easter from the den.

We haven't used the den since April due to the new carpet install and putting a ton of stuff in there.

Taking care of Louis Dean is about all I can do now.

I am taking care of myself as much as I can.

A nice cold drink on a hot summer day in a pretty glass .....

with a sprig of fresh mint and a slice of peach, makes everything better.

Our sweet neighbor, Tamara, brought over a home made spinach artichoke dip and it arrived on our porch just as I had made our lunch of a sausage kolache and potato chips.

The dip made our simple lunch a special one.

So Saturday was a simple quiet day with no makeup, done hair or pretty clothes.

It was a day to BE.

I have been going out every morning to do some yard work and clean things up outside.

Right now I am trying to keep our landscape from dying and clean up the junk and debris as I can.

I fill up at least one trash bag every day - weeds, trimmings and j.u.n.k.

I went to see my sister today (Sunday).

My dear friend, Brenda, picked me up this afternoon and drove me over to the hospital in Fort Worth.

Since I was leaving Louis Dean home alone, I left notes all over the house letting him know I was gone. 

 Pam came over to check on him and they had a nice visit.

Even so - Pam reminded him before she left NOT to go outside,  he still went in the backyard and put potting soil in four pots to prepare for planting.

I know this because I have become a detective.

He tracked mud in on the white rugs in the bathroom and there were four fresh pots of dirt in his music room that were not there when I left.

DUH!!!

I appreciate Brenda so much.

Nita is at day # 15 on total life support.

Brenda waited in the waiting room while I was in the room with Nita.

I prayed with her and talked to her. Brushed her hair, put perfume on my hand and held it up so she could smell it.

I played her song Inner Demons holding my phone to her ear and I held and kissed her hand.

I read the 23rd Psalm to her and told her people all over the world are praying for her.

I asked her to stay with us if she can.

God is with Nita and the breath of God is in her now....and I hope we get to keep her....I also know that Nita is with God - both here now and will be forever in eternity.

It was a hard afternoon. I called Deanie from the hospital after I had seen Nita and I do believe we comforted each other.

I found comfort in staying busy and doing the next thing at hand while never being far from tears this evening.

My active duty right now is taking care of Louis Dean.

He and I went next door to water for Stephanie and things like this make Louis Dean feel valued.

And he IS valued! Whether he does anything or not.

Still, HE feels better when he's contributing.

And he does love Stephanie

There has been other sorrows today.

I don't want to share what's not mine to share but a dear like a daughter to me lost her mother last night.

There's no escaping the sorrow and grief we are going through.

Nowhere to hide from it and not anything we can do to change it.

So I am crying and hurting tonight but I know this is all part of living.

I trust God with my life and the life of Nita and Louis Dean.

I trust God as he welcomed my friend into heaven last night and I trust him to comfort us in our sorrows. I prayed for my friend every morning as she was on my personal prayer list of widows.

Tomorrow will be the first day not to pray for her.

She is my second widow to go on to be with the Lord.

My heart is happy for her and yet I mourn for her family who is grieving tonight.