Stupor Thursday.....Thinking of Mother.....

Today has been hard.
Mother is in the final stage of her life.
Deanie was with her for much of the day.
Summer stayed with her this evening as did Nita.
I have spent the day doing therapy.
I cleaned.
I organized my tea towels and dishcloths.
I vacuumed.
I potted plants - mint for Sherry I brought from home and onions I bought in Groesbeck last week.

I strung up a string of cool white lights in the front room window.....

and thought how bright some lights are shining even as others are fading.

I personally don't like the cool white as much as I do the warm white bulbs.

I had three strands of lights on this tree and two of them had gone out.

I undecorated the whole tree and added two 100 count strands of LED warm white bulbs.

For some reason, lights are important to me.

I must have them. 

Not brilliant blinding lights but soft comforting ones.

I am thinking tonight that people are like lights.
Some are really bright.....like my grandchildren.
I thought of my youngest ones.....Rayne, Trystan, Kailey, Harrison and Logan.
They are the brilliant white lights shining all young and bright.
Then there is the white lights of my older grands....Sam, Faith and Levi.
Bold and steady lights.
I think of the new LED lights reflecting my children....Summer, Jesse, Amber and Benjamin.
They have been shining for a good while now and will shine for many long years more.
I think of myself as an older warm white light.
Still glowing as the white fades into more of a soft amber glow.

Mother's light is fading tonight.....and it is time.

"Our times are in His hands."

Mother's time.

My time.

Your time.

We're going to bed early tonight so we can get up and leave first thing in the morning.

I plan to spend the day sitting with Mother,

Deanie requested 24 hour hospice care and there is a LVN with Mother tonight.

Life is a journey.

We are all on this same journey - just at different stages.