I think God was preparing my heart the very moment I woke up this morning.
The first thing I thought about was Maggie. She didn't eat much last night and I was concerned about her. I found her in her cat bed ......she had passed away. Poor Louis Dean, I cried and cried....and cried and cried. He comforted me and I cried some more. I composed myself and then saw her wine glass of water on the hearth and then cried some more. Louis Dean was my knight in shining armour. He took care of Maggie and she is now the third little grave in our back yard pet cemetery.
I comforted myself with looking through all of our pictures of Maggie.
I photographed her nearly every week.
We loved that little cat!
Facebook once again proved to be a real blessing to me.
No sooner had I posted than my friend, Dawn, called me.
Somehow I knew she would. She lost her little Aggie not all that long ago.
I so appreciate all the kind thoughts and words and prayers from friends and family.
Sorrow shared is a bit less painful.
Today was hard.
I did not feel like going to a movie.
I called Ruth Ann and she totally understood.
Sometimes you just need to be sad for a little while.
Louis Dean thought I should get out of the house (so I would stop crying!) so Ruth Ann and I decided to get pedicures.
That was a good idea. We tried a new place (to us) at the mall.
It was WONDERFUL!!!! Ruth Ann got THE best chair! Mine had a soft massage thing going on - very subtle. Ruth Ann's, on the other hand, was bucking and jumping wildly!!! It looked like she was at a rodeo!! Next time we go - I want HER chair!!!!!
They did a really good job and I think we have decided this is our new nail salon!
From there we stopped at the Goodwill. I had a bag to drop off. Then we browsed for just a bit.
My heart wasn't in it but I did find three 'treasures.'
The scarecrow's head is a bit wobbly - but then so is mine sometime - so I bought him!!
The little dress just LOOKED like Raynie - so I bought that!
You can never have too many umbrellas and most of ours are the huge golfing ones and THIS one was a London Fog that folds up into a tiny pouch - so I bought that!
From there we drove across the street to ALDI. That's not somewhere I shop often because you have to have REAL money - or a debit card. I don't have either one. However I was still carrying a few 'vacation dollars' with me. Ruth Ann loves their chicken salad and bought some for our art class supper tonight. I got some whipped pumpkin cream cheese to go with the spiced pumpkin muffins I had, and some decadent wine!!!!
I already had some crackers and bread from our trip to Central Market on Sunday.
Now let me tell you about the wine I bought!
It is seriously DELICIOUS!!!!! It TASTES as good as it SOUNDS!!!
We used these tiny little baby wine glasses I have and I have no idea where I got them!
Let's just say I am going BACK to ALDI in the morning for MORE chicken salad and MORE of that wine!!! I am hosting a couple of parties back to back soon and this wine is sure to be a hit!
Art is always good therapy and it was so again tonight!
You can't paint a Santa without smiling!
I worked on my BOOTS awhile. These three are pretty much done. I used a pierced earring from Deanie on the cerulean blue one. Sabrina bought some hearts at Michael's and gave me three for the first boot. I just stuck them through the canvas. Only four more boots to go. One will have some lace decoupaged on it. This will be a really INTERESTING dimensional painting!
It's been a rough day but tonight I am back to counting my blessings and remembering all the good memories we made with Maggie!
Last night I was rather blue about my health situation. I feared I may have been guilty of giving out TMI! Too MUCH information. Actually, I failed to tell some important details.
I have been seeing a specialist for over a year. It's funny because when I was first telling my sister about seeing a new doctor I called him a 'Urine-ologist!!!" He is a UROLOGIST! And he told me yesterday there are yet more specialists within this field of specialists! I can say that I am actively seeking treatment and addressing my health issues. Sometimes when you are dealing with an issue of long standing - it almost seems easier to just give up and say 'What's the use?' I have watched both of my daughters fight and battle to regain their health and I am now doing the same. They are my role models.
Louis Dean and I are sitting in the gazebo and will enjoy a last glass of wine before going to bed.
It's been a long day and I am grateful for the many friends and loved ones that helped me get through it. And I am thankful God sent us a little Maggie to keep us company for awhile.
I'm stopping now before I start crying again.....
21 comments:
I am so sorry for your loss Linda. I am praying for you to have strength and comfort to help you through. I also pray for your body to be healed, for many miracles to bless your path. You bless so many with your words. Rest in Peace little Maggie... Jackie
Linda, dear Linda. We are back from our trip, and feels so good to be home, but so saddened to hear of your precious Maggie passing. Our Molly is 11 and I can't imagine us without her. She was so good on this trip, and Tristan just loved her and she was so calm and patient with him. I will hold you in my prayers, for your hurt heart, and also your health issues. Love you tons. So glad to crawl into my own bed tonight. More later.
Many hugs Linda. Maggie was a wonderful part of your lives and she will stay in your memories and thoughts forever. You have written about Maggie with love and shared so many pictures of her as part of your family. I'm glad you went out today and painted this evening.
Joy
I am so sorry! I just could not believe it when I saw on Facebook. Well, you gave her such a good life, and she really knew love and comfort. I am looking for this wine! Your tray of food looks just beautiful! And I am glad you are going to a urine-ologist...ha ha! Blessings to you, I wish you peace.
Dear Friend Linda, I am so sorry to learn about your precious cat Maggie. So sad - but the silver lining is that she died in a comfortable spot as a loved and well cared pet. Many good memories will keep her alive in your mind. *hugs*
Maggie slipped peacefully into the next life knowing she was loved. I am so sorry Linda and I know you will be very sad about your dear pet. They really work their way into our hearts, don't they? Glad to hear you are seeing a Urologist. Take care, sending love from Scotland X
Right now, I can't get passed the sad feeling about Maggie. May she rest in peace.
keep on crying when you need to, crying is healing by God and that is why he gave us that ability... i am so so so very sorry to hear about sweet Maggie, the only cat i know who drank her water from Crystal. LD was right and I am glad you got out of the house.... and you can never give TMI on your health. we all want to know and will support with comments and caring and prayers...
Oh no...sweet precious Maggie. I am "seeing" her with the quads and how well she adjusted to them and how delighted they were with her. Sending a warm, gentle hug. I love how you moved forward with your day and I know that you have plans going all the time. Yay for plans! Praying for those health concerns to be resolved, too.
The wine? Sounds divine. ; >
Linda...I cannot tell you how this saddens me to hear about your sweet Maggie! May she be loved in heaven as she was here with you. She seemed so small and sweet. My heartfelt prayers are with you today.
Oh Linda, I am just SO sorry for your loss! I am close with my dog too, so have empathy for what you are going through. Our pets are part of our family! With time, I hope you can think of Maggie without so much sadness. One day, when the time is right, maybe you can get another cat. That may help fill that empty place in your heart too. We have an Aldi in the next town over from us and I have never been. I may have to check it out. I've heard it's inexpensive. Glad that you were able to keep busy despite your grief. Being around others can be a comfort when you're dealing with loss. Glad that you are seeing the right doctors about your UTI. I have some chronic health problems that I have to deal with too. It's not fun, but a part of life for many of us. Just be glad that what you're dealing with isn't going to kill you and that you have access to medical care. At times like this it's easy to get depressed, but try to focus on getting better instead of feeling like giving up. Just remind yourself of the quote, "This too shall pass". I tell myself that whenever I'm dealing with a flare up from my inflammatory disease.
My heart goes out to you. Losing a pet is the same as losing a family member and it hurts. I am glad she passed in her sleep in her special bed, glad for her for that. You loved her and cared for her well, including her own little wine glass:) The Quads are going to bombard you with questions you know :(
I am so very very sorry about Maggie. And I am sorry too that I have missed your health issue. I do hope you are okay.
I am so, so sorry to hear about your sweet Maggie. ((hugs))
Linda, I am sorry about the loss of Maggie. I know you and LD loved that cat. The little ones had just gotten to know her. I am sending hugs to all of you. xoxo,Susie
So sorry about Maggie - always enjoyed seeing her sip out of the wine glass. Take care.
I am so very sorry about Maggie. I definitely know what you're going through. We lost our two older cats several years ago. It did help when I got Holly though. :) It's good that you're keeping busy. I think that helps a lot. We have an Aldi too, but like you, it bothers me that I can't use my credit card there. I've heard they have great prices on flowers too. I may have to check it out. :)
Linda and LD, I am so sorry to hear of Maggie's passing! I commented from work earlier today, but it would not publish. My eyes swelled with tears as I read your post. She was the cutest kitty. I always enjoyed her antics and the fact that she traveled so well. Sending hugs and loves your way!
~Lynne
withLove!
I am so sorry to hear about the loss of your furry family member, so sad but Maggie had a great like with the best Cat Momma and Daddy that Maggie could ever hope for
sorry, typo, I meant a great life :) Take care
Oh, Linda, this made my eyes leak. I am so, so sorry about precious Maggie. It's heartbreaking when we lose a fur baby. Just know that she knew how much she was loved!
You're a brave soul for getting out and about. I think a pedicure helps anything! Glad you're pursuing options for your health care too.
I'm having a problem with my left eye and can't be on the computer much. Sending you hugs and love ~
Pat
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