There is a fly in the ointment - so to speak - and I am having to practice what I preach.
Mainly, not questioning God when things don't go the way I want them.
Realizing God's timing is always perfect.
Shifting gears and change plans as needed.
Don't fret because of problems.
Handle disappointments with grace instead of bitterness.
That being said - I made one stop on my way back to the camper yesterday afternoon -
at the Dollar Store!
I loaded up on all the naughty things I normally do NOT eat!
Now the tea I drink all the time so I switched it out to a bottle of Diet Coke so cold from the camper fridge it had ice crystals in it! I must confess to buying a bottle of Pinot Grigio but my wine opener broke and I couldn't very well gnaw the cork off! I had the donuts opened and one in my mouth by the time I busted through the camper door! I was loaded for bear!
Can you tell I was feeling a bit blue?
I spent some time writing in my journal and reading my Bible - things I do everyday but with renewed vigor this time! I sat out under the gazebo canopy with the winds gusting up to 35 miles an hour and billowing the curtains out all the way around. I had this almost irresistible urge to fling my arms out and yell, "You can't fool Mother Nature!" Remember that commercial for some margarine? Maybe it was 'I Can't Believe It's Not Butter!' Anyway, you get the idea. I was fit to be tied. What to do when you really don't know exactly what to do? My mother would often say, "I'm going to do SOMETHING even if it's WRONG!!"
Probably not the best advice.
I try to stay with the saying ' If you're not sure WHAT to do - don't do ANYTHING!'
Sometimes you must simply be still and wait. And possibly think.
So! I wrote out my favorite scriptures, talked to Louis Dean, prayed, and
At 3:00 this morning I got out of bed and peeked out the door to see if the canopy was still on the gazebo.
The screw nut that holds the front side down over the frame had come off and I could plainly see it on the concrete. Out I went in my nightie to put it back in. I couldn't find a screwdriver so I used a case knife which worked every bit as well. When I was growing up that's all we ever had. I asked Deanie about it and she agreed! Neither of us remember ever having a real screw driver at home.
I woke up this morning still feeling like I was in a stupor. The advice I give to others is to do the next right thing. Keep putting one step in front of the other. So I took my own advice! I dressed - not very well. I wore my most comfy grungy clothes - baggy pants, oversize tee and a denim over shirt. I had a bad hair day so I had to wear a hat. I DID put on a bit of make up and a pair of earrings and off I went to Quadville.
You can't stay blue when you're around all these babies!
I did some different chores than I normally do. Today I made the organic baby food Amber had planned.
Sweet potatoes and cantaloupe.
Plus she brought me a BIG Sonic drink when she ran up to the grocery store!
That puts a smile on any one's face.
I am so impressed with the quality of food the quads eat!
She also made chicken steamed with celery and carrots for their first meat meal.
I began to feel better and better as the day went on.
I ran back to the camper to tighten the canopy screws and my sister, Deanie, called me.
Just talking to her gave me some clarity in my mind. Sisters are like that. They talk you through things!
I have decided to go home as we planned! My heart was suddenly much lighter!
Things were looking up!
AND they got even better!
A box was delivered to Amber's door - which is nothing new since they order SO much online!
(You would, too, if you had four babies! You just don't have TIME to shop in stores!)
However, THIS box was addressed to 'Linda and Lucy!'
I was so surprised!
Something for ME and something for LUCY!!
The 'Good Clean Dog' soap smells GOOD enough for ME to use!
And whose heart had just reached out to touch mine?
Now I don't mean to be cagey or anything about my big concern.
I'm just not at liberty to say.
We have a real chore to deal with that will take a lot of $$, time and energy.
All three of these are precious commodities to anyone.
In light of eternity, this dragon that must be slayed - while looming large in our small life - will not really matter. God has a way of working things out.
I close this post with a peace and contentment I did not have this morning.
And I will leave you with the cutest picture I have taken in awhile!
This was right before we got the babies ready for the last feeding of the day and bedtime.
Notice the grip Logan has on Kailey's hair.
Amber thinks Logan was checking for teeth!
Babies have a way of bringing a smile to our faces!